Sometimes I randomly think of you Even if I don’t want to, I do anyways. 

Sometimes I randomly think of you 
Even if I don’t want to, I do anyways.

 

Work of Junnie Jadetrin Ranola. @Stain Tattoo. 04-07-2012 (Taken with instagram)

Work of Junnie Jadetrin Ranola. @Stain Tattoo. 04-07-2012 (Taken with instagram)

I tend to go with the flow, so I don’t get upset much. I always say that there is no point in getting upset over things you can’t control… you learn from it and move on. I tend to find happiness in small things around me, like looking at the stars, running around in the rain, reading and writing. I guess you can say I’m romantically stimulated. I do what I must in order to survive. People around me describe me as friend that will be there, a dreamer, an out of the box weirdo in my own standards, optimistic, but I describe myself as just Kathy.

We will never understand
Why we hurt our loved ones
Nor Why our love ones hurt us
Or why we feel what we do
But life will never give up on you

They say being strong is all you have to do
But being weak shows us where we fall
And how to fix those mistakes we have done

Don’t try to fix what happened in the past
Or go to your future for something that’s to far ahead of you
Look at what you have now
Change what you need to
And live how you want to

Dont let anyone tell you who you are
Cause you know who you are
A person with feelings 
Who doesnt care about what they have lost
But who cares for whats right here in front of them

my broken reflection

As I look in the mirror
I turn down the lights
And wonder who is starring back at me
I ask myself all the possible things “Who Is This”

This broken reflection
Isn’t free
She has much to learn
Her wings are still set low to the ground
but her strength grows each and every day

One thing that will never change in that reflection is her love for her loved ones
Change is only good if you want it not for someone else who tells you it.

-Kathy Yuen 

Mentally Scarred for life.

Usually I spend 3-4 hours at the gym, if I’m really motivated I spend 5-6, ever since I started my membership at LVAC.
-Anywho today I was at the gym around 5  almost 6 in the the evening til 9 something at night.
Everything was great, had a good workout for today until after I hit the showers.

My workout log for today /mostly cardio:
-3.01 miles on the Treadmill
-13.14 miles on the stationary bike for a good hour or so.
-10 mins on the StairMaster  
-8 sets of 20 ab crunch
-4 sets of 15 on the Hip Abduction for outer thighs set on 80 lbs weights.
-2 set of 15 on the dip machine for triceps, anterior deltoids set on 75 lbs weights

 After working out, usually head for the lockers to grab my facial cleansers , shampoo/conditioner and towel.
Headed to the bathroom to cleanse my face, then after head to the showers.
Took like a quick 5 min shower, grab my towel. Was totally securely wrapped, then BOOM! this lady in her late 40s full on nude bumped into me. 
From then on I was totally scarred. It wasn’t just a naked lady…. this lady was over weight, not that I have a problem with over weight people because I do not have a problem with them what so ever. It was just her naked body touched me. Never in my life - I’m scarred for life. There was so much loose skins, and rolls on from her body that came in contact towards me. Her saggy breast literally was touching my face. =( 0_o
-Then she was like “Oh my goodness sweetie, I am so sorry”
And went off to one of the individual shower area like it was nothing.

I am mentally/visually scarred after that incident.

put it into my past

I wish I could go back into the past
So I could fix every mistake 
That I’ve ever made

My world isn’t perfect 
But who’s really is?
You can hide the truth
Or learn to deal with it

Where would I be if I didn’t know the people I once knew?
Could anyone ever replace them… no, not really.
I can start all over 
And forget everything that happened
To put it in my past
And to relax and enjoy life

Oct. 23rd, 2011
Yvette Flores’ Baby Shower =]


I’m not perfect I make mistakes
Sometimes I go down the right path 
And other times I go down the wrong path
I can be like a road, it’s solid and hard to break
But it shows the cracks left there for everyone to see the scars
I can only be me, no one else and nothing less

To Kelly:- Honestly, you are the coolest person I know, well known because I haven’t seen you since Freshman Year of high school.You are like such an extraordinary individual who is your own person. Which makes you lovable in every way. So today I saw this post on my fb wall.Made me smh, because I don’t remember you ever being mean to me. -I really do appreciated it. But you were never mean to me.You know what I do remember about elementary school was 3 things/or 3 events. One time in 3rd grade, I think it was reading hour… you just came from a different class. You were sitting down sharing photos, I came across them looking at it and notice a picture of you and this girl. That girl was Susan. I was like “omg, you know Susan too,” I was so happy, You were like ‘you know her too? , I was like yeah she and I went to the same elementary school from k-2nd grade up until she was accepted to Manchester Gate. I remember I was like after seeing those photos that I wanted you to tell her I missed her..  The other event was Wednesdays. I remember those days were early day when school ended early. I consider those days nice because we would walk home together and on our way, we would talk. You and your little brother, also with me and my older sister Stacy. Sometime we would take the extension bridge then part ways somewhere on Barten Ave. , having you heading towards Clinton street because your neighborhood was just across the street of Clinton and mines was near the church. Then sometime we would take another route home on Wednesdays, toward Clinton & Maple just to stop by at this mini mart to buy candies and sometime drinks and would head down Clinton toward Cedar afterward. Sometimes we would stop by at the local Donut shop and get something there before we part ways home..  Another event I remember, was that it was Spring break our 5th grade year. We were on A track, I think, and we had a month off from school. I was sad because I was moving during that time to a new place meaning also have to move schools. I remember you showed up to say bye to me at my old apartment that I use to live in across the street of Sacred Heart Church. You had your mom drive you, and you knocked on my door with a box of glazed donuts. You gave them to me and gave me a hug good bye and wish me well. That meant so much to me and one of the nicest thing you did, because you were the only one that came to visit me on the day my family was packing our stuff to the moving van. Those were good memories from elementary.You were like the coolest and the nicest person I know.  

To Kelly:
- Honestly, you are the coolest person I know, well known because I haven’t seen you since Freshman Year of high school.
You are like such an extraordinary individual who is your own person. Which makes you lovable in every way. 
So today I saw this post on my fb wall.
Made me smh, because I don’t remember you ever being mean to me. 
-I really do appreciated it. 
But you were never mean to me.

You know what I do remember about elementary school was 3 things/or 3 events.

  • One time in 3rd grade, I think it was reading hour… you just came from a different class. You were sitting down sharing photos, I came across them looking at it and notice a picture of you and this girl. That girl was Susan. I was like “omg, you know Susan too,” I was so happy, You were like ‘you know her too? , I was like yeah she and I went to the same elementary school from k-2nd grade up until she was accepted to Manchester Gate. I remember I was like after seeing those photos that I wanted you to tell her I missed her.
    . 
  • The other event was Wednesdays. I remember those days were early day when school ended early. I consider those days nice because we would walk home together and on our way, we would talk. You and your little brother, also with me and my older sister Stacy. Sometime we would take the extension bridge then part ways somewhere on Barten Ave. , having you heading towards Clinton street because your neighborhood was just across the street of Clinton and mines was near the church. Then sometime we would take another route home on Wednesdays, toward Clinton & Maple just to stop by at this mini mart to buy candies and sometime drinks and would head down Clinton toward Cedar afterward. Sometimes we would stop by at the local Donut shop and get something there before we part ways home.
    . 
  • Another event I remember, was that it was Spring break our 5th grade year. We were on A track, I think, and we had a month off from school. I was sad because I was moving during that time to a new place meaning also have to move schools. I remember you showed up to say bye to me at my old apartment that I use to live in across the street of Sacred Heart Church. You had your mom drive you, and you knocked on my door with a box of glazed donuts. You gave them to me and gave me a hug good bye and wish me well. That meant so much to me and one of the nicest thing you did, because you were the only one that came to visit me on the day my family was packing our stuff to the moving van.

Those were good memories from elementary.
You were like the coolest and the nicest person I know.  

It is hard to ignore all the negative comments people are saying about you, especially the false accusations people are spreading. Why go out of your way making others look bad. The only person people will avoid is you. No one wants to be around people who only has bad things to say about other people. Especially the lies you had to make up and now no one will ever believe you. People who gossips will eventually become lonely individuals in the end whether what you said was true or not.

Video for Jay R. Sagbigsal
@ jayrsagbigsal.tumblr.com

“You would be broken down as a civilian and be built back up as a Marine”
-Kathy P. Yuen

Something healthy… I guess
-Chopped Spinach ,shredded mango,sliced strawberries,thinly shaved relish, avocados, keylime, tomatoes, croutons, crispy red peppers,grated parmesan cheese 

Maroon 5 - Goodnight goodnight

Personally, I can interpret this song in a whole different out look then what was on the original music video. Okay, that quoted verse of Maroon 5’s “Goodnight Goodnight” hits home hard.  

“I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah”

Awkward conversation with my aunts

It was brought to my attention that I have a big ass.
My aunt Phayvahn was telling me that Asians with a big ass, is kind of rare, because usually they have a flat butts. 
I’m like okay.
Then she continued…for Laotian woman they usually have big set of breast/racks or just descent sets and have no ass.
She pointed out “Damn, Kathy you are just the opposite, you have a nice big butt, yet you have no chest.”

-Kind of offended and told her I do have a chest but it’s not big.

She joked “Kathy are you mix with Buc Dum (That means Black in Lao) or something….because you really do have an ass.”

-It got me to thinking about all the females in my family, both from my mom side (which are all viets) and my dad side (Lao/viet). And realize, all of them have no ass what so ever but have descent set of racks/boobs. 0_o

Then my aunt Sommay was like laughing it off…”Gee, Katt I think your genes just flip the boat, but don’t worry sweetie you can always buy a set of pairs to your liking”

Afterwards I was incomplete silence.